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2011-11-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

the song that made me tear like f "I have died everyday waiting for you Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you for a Thousand years I'll love you for a Thousand more" - A Thousand Years

2011-10-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

2011-08-13T18:03:00.001+08:00

often than not, words come out from our mouths without much thoughts. perhaps, people like you should learn how to restrain your mouth. you know nothing about me. i may laugh at your insensitive words. but your insensitivity is equivalent to rubbing salt into fresh wounds. bless those few left with good hearts- they are rare gems in this sad world.

2011-08-09T00:00:00.002+08:00

nothing beats having comfort food after a long day at work :') yummy as ever. i placed faith on a hairdresser too easily, yet again! this time, he's my aunts' childhood friend who own a hair salon down town..need to get this screwed up hairdo fixed :( i was that close to neater looking hairdo..urghhh

2011-08-05T00:11:00.001+08:00

in every work environment, theres bound to be some politics here & there- getting sick of certain issues & same old difficult people..i wonder how the work culture is like overseas..hmmm..

2011-07-31T22:42:00.001+08:00

my heart would cringe whenever grandma stays over because she's always looking forward to seeing you. due to her dementia, she could not register that you're gone from my life- i dont blame her for that. instead of the memory of you, i would rather she remember all the basics e.g eat her medicine or if she had her meals instead of constantly falling into memory lapse. who are you anyway? just

2011-07-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

wedding bells are ringing real soon- the decision was quick & final. i am at lost of how i should feel. nevertheless, im putting all my well wishes into this, i want you to be happy :)lotsa love xoxo

2011-07-21T23:18:00.001+08:00

taking real long to complete a tv series online just because i dont want it to end so quickly.

2011-07-20T22:33:00.001+08:00

body gave in to the unpredictable weather- the flu bug caught up on me :( those problems simmered down a bit, who knows what might happen next..life's unpredictable yeahh

2011-07-17T14:30:00.005+08:00

forced my eyelids open to escape the sweet dream before i allowed myself to sink deeper-it started to become a lame ass sobbing scene :( how in the world can my mind conjure up such stuff, i wonder. the cold weather is causing my legs to act up again- calves taking turn to cramp up in the middle of the night suckssssssss

2011-07-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

ima screw things up tomorrow. we'll see, i dont wanna sit back & let things happen! things are definitely not favourable on my family's end :(

2011-07-15T21:32:00.001+08:00

no matter how much i want to scream "NOOOO!", ive got no say but to bow down & accept the decisions which are made- since you seem sure of your path in life from today. its your life, your future. i hope you made the wise choice because i dont wish to see you suffer nor do i want our parents to be burdened in their later years. i wish problems would take the chill pill & stop popping up in my

2011-07-12T23:44:00.004+08:00

swear my emotions would go haywire in no time. sleep deprivation, unexpected work overload & lack of proper meals have turned me into a cranky monster. shit happens, too often to myself & the people around me. no time for finger-pointing games. things will have to be settled like matured individuals. dear you, please try to accept our advice for once. need.to.breathe.

2011-07-07T22:27:00.004+08:00

i can no longer be a childish individual, earning for the future matters the most- to purchase things that i like plus save up for what lies ahead. tough, but who else is there as my pillar of support? theres absolutely no one who will be there beside you for your whole life- because people hardly stay forever.

2011-06-29T21:19:00.002+08:00

i aint no pretty face.

2011-06-27T18:03:00.001+08:00

i must be fine cause my heart's still beating. -The White Stripestaking baby steps each day, embracing everything that comes my way- ima learn to look at things from a different perspective. i'd do well in life & invest more of my time on those who are worth it :)

2011-06-26T17:41:00.010+08:00

awesome night! wished everyone could be there & not caught up with their own commitments/work.i kinda miss those days in poly :( these days, im more afraid of growing up than anything else. i kept my word- i led my life as per normal, i stopped any communication & blocked you out from my life. i did things that people think i will not do- i clubbed & i love the atmosphere. i chose to shut

2011-06-24T21:34:00.004+08:00

credits to jac little piece of heaven. 1 for 1 meal on wednesday- stuffed to the brim. with good food almost everyday, life's good! fats, i know youre accumulating :B p.s. im gonna be okay, im gonna be okay. breatheeeeee.

2011-06-21T09:23:00.001+08:00

@ 9am- my workplace is so happening, trance & r n b blasting at such timing \m/

2011-06-19T01:33:00.002+08:00

wake up, work, home, dinner, bed. such is life for the past week. total exhaustion- mentally & physically. something in me just kept up with the pace..aint complaining, starting to like my new environment :D

2011-06-10T20:25:00.002+08:00

brain's been working overtime..been hyper for weeks now! loving the feel :B last day in office today..mixed feelings..the aunties there are such sweethearts <3 gonna miss all you wonderful people! new environment awaits...

2011-06-05T19:08:00.001+08:00

catching up, birthday, grandma's homely food ♥ p.s. my eyes are like slits in most of the photos- flash.too.bright! but who cares!

2011-06-02T23:27:00.003+08:00

the truth always comes out its one of the fundamental rules of time and when it comes out, it can set you free or end everything you fought so hard for.- Gossip Girl

2011-05-31T13:38:00.004+08:00

finally, better after all the purging! appetite's back on track. missed the opportunity, but ima try out for the next one. weather's been pretty bad! but ima make full use of it, gonna absorb some sunlight tomorrow..its been awhile, sun! :D p.s. keep your girl to yourself, why let her wander over to my side wanting to be friends?

2011-05-22T02:43:00.001+08:00

starting to read all over again brought back memories of how i loved to read..all the books that ive left on my bookshelf, untouched as i was too busy with building my future. the sacrifices and effort ive made failed to secure the future i was hoping for. one of my favourite book is still missing, theres a gap in my collection still- like the space i have deep down thats taking ages to heal.

2011-05-18T22:43:00.009+08:00

Letters to Sam by Daniel Gottlieb " i want you to know that being different is not a problem. it's just being different. but feeling different is a problem. when you feel different, the feeling can actually change the way you see the world. " " what changed was what i did with my mind. your different- ness & my different- ness are just facts. sometimes what we do with our minds turn those facts

2011-05-08T19:32:00.006+08:00

celebrated birthday with bak kut teh feast, went up to pinnacle @ duxto- what a sight! what's missing is a swimming pool/ suana!, $10 ktv, i slowly got back my appetite, mum's birthday buffet, mothers' day buffet, partied till late, yes im kind of addicted to the whole heart thumping atmosphere but deep down, i know that ive got to count every single cent i spend (ive got a future to build on my

2011-05-03T09:10:00.003+08:00

that little trust i had left for the relationship just vanished when i came to know about the new girl. though i allowed time for you to speak up, i hear nothing from you..i knew then, what i predicted was right- you've moved on silently & so swiftly without the courage of facing me. you're a nightmare, a coward taking shelter under your overprotective parent.

2011-05-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

my boyfriend of 3 years & 5 months emerged from the silent treatment he's been giving me since mid april, told me he had confinement in camp this weekend (fyi word was only exchanged on text message) therefore, unable to settle the issue that we've been dragging since april..but in reality, he was busy banging a thai girl throughout the weekend..my life is that dramatic..

2011-05-01T17:30:00.002+08:00

He betrayed you, right? After telling you he loved you and calling you pet names like baby and cutie? Yeah, I know he lavished you in compliments, only to put himself down so you would stroke his fakely low ego. Did he tell you that you were beautiful? I bet he promised you a personalized song. Or maybe he’d always mention how he was lying in bed and wished you were there. He dragged “I love

2011-04-27T19:01:00.004+08:00

im glad that you took the effort to step out from the long silence. i felt upset that i didnt manage to get an answer from you. im more upset with myself for messing up,again. i really did try :'( im guess you saw my mum's comment. im sorry..i didnt know she would post such negative words..you should know what kind of person she is when it comes to giving me advice..till today, i refuse to

2011-04-25T20:50:00.001+08:00

i understand you need time. but how much longer? give me an answer personally..to stop my mind from wandering..i'll stop clinging on if you feel that we're really not meant to be..i still love you..ive never given up on us before..i apologise for my outburst..im sorry :'(

2011-04-24T13:58:00.000+08:00

im paying for my huge mistake everyday..i didnt know how to handle the rs well, i didnt understand us well..i pushed you to the corner because i was struggling to build up the trust in us again..im sorry.

2011-04-23T23:35:00.002+08:00

i dont understand why the reactions from my family were so negative when they saw me looking upset. they knew nothing at all but shoot their mouth any old how. thanks for the offensive advice mum...that is the problem why i refuse to get advice from you.

2011-04-23T12:26:00.000+08:00

ive swooped down so low to beg for an answer. yet you maintained the silence. why is it so hard to just give me a definite answer?

2011-04-23T11:49:00.000+08:00

why do i feel that im the only one suffering from such great pain?

2011-04-22T22:58:00.001+08:00

the silence kills me each day. its okay if you dont feel like facing me. its okay if you keep wanting to escape. all i ask for, is a definite answer in my face. enough of false hope- telling me that you still love me. im no longer your shiny star, im no different from others.

2011-04-22T17:27:00.001+08:00

what have we become? i cannot endure the pain of looking at our photographs. i cant bear to look at our smiley faces. im not strong enough, i cant pretend that im okay any more. i cant.. .

2011-04-20T21:24:00.001+08:00

its all my fault. no one else should shoulder the blame except me. i made the mistake for forgiving all that you lied about. the mistake of going against my values in hope of keeping this rs. my mistake for believing that all your words would actually be put into action. my mistake for holding on when the voice inside of me kept screaming to me to end this. its okay that im feeling double the

2011-04-18T20:19:00.002+08:00

im overwhelmed beyond words. i cant exactly pen down all the feelings in me. i'd just choke on every single word if it were to come out. because those words will never be enough to express how upset i am. i couldnt believe how i fought & held on to this. things happen it always does, i'll end up falling from a great height, higher each time. nothing we do is smooth sailing- i guess we're not

2011-04-11T23:09:00.003+08:00

it feels damn good when im able to purchase pieces of clothing/ shoes with my own hard earned money nowadays. its like a form of instant thrill & happiness i get every single time i punch in those numbers at the cashier. remembering how i once skipped meals just to save 30bucks to get my one & only topshop top during secondary school days. dining at pepper lunch was such a grand affair..sweet

2011-04-04T22:22:00.001+08:00

my life is going down the drain..back to the same old unsolved issues, been seeing myself tearing to sleep for the past week..i wish i could just shut everything down with one flick of a switch..family- is nothing but an outer shell without any warmth/ comfort. theres no one who could provide me with the relevant advice i need..i'll stand on my own feet, i'll earn my own money, i'll succeed in

2011-03-28T23:12:00.001+08:00

the day which once held so much meaning is now so pathetically worthless. till the day i could gather enough strength, i'd just lay down & let things go with the flow for now.

2011-03-25T12:20:00.003+08:00

2011-03-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

i is a man, seriously. fav, omg faintzxzxz new found love! braved the heat for these *OMG OUCH PAIN!* when u step on a lego brick our own tech deck! goodbye bruises on my legs :B

2011-03-07T23:08:00.001+08:00

itouch, shooting at incoming zombies, screaming, thumping hearts. this is life- how we spent our weekend :))

2011-02-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

MY FACE IS KNNBCCB-LY ROUND & FATTY! urghhhh

2011-02-24T15:33:00.000+08:00

coolspottershotttttttttttttttttt! i didnt know shes such a looker :B so much difference with her short hair!

2011-02-24T15:12:00.003+08:00

im honoured that people appreciate the photos that i capture. im not that awesome in this area. however, plagiarism is a big fat NO NO. at least show some respect to all photo enthusiasts (& me). the least you could do is to credit whatever you "stole". its that obvious.

2011-02-21T21:49:00.001+08:00

the spoilt brat wanted chinese & his ramen fix. its been awhile since we last ate at our fav jap ramen place. yum as ever. forgive the horrid photos, its for memory sake :B

2011-02-17T21:06:00.001+08:00

how would you define "family"? i dislike my parental side ttc. what irks me the most is their nonsense belief of "i gave you money while you were growing up, therefore, youre obliged to give me money in the future." i think this mindset my relatives have is pretty retarded? no.1, i didnt ask for their money at all. no.2 their "good" intentions of giving me the money from the start is totally

2011-02-14T20:39:00.000+08:00

baby, you're the colour in my life ♥

2011-02-10T20:34:00.000+08:00

2011-01-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

warm up our taste buds yum! extra love the curry eggplant they served with the rice <3 warmed up our tummies on the rainy Sunday.

2011-01-30T12:33:00.001+08:00

finally! felt damn good, got it with my hard earned money. cheap xlbzxzxz

2011-01-20T15:11:00.001+08:00

double antisipation, yeeeeeeeeeah! next week:)though the new cast are not as hot as effy nor freddy/ maxxie/ tony, got to catch it before making any comments. hehhhhhhh

2011-01-17T00:03:00.000+08:00

nightmare, ive got so much inside me that i gonna burst.all the things that ive kept so that all my friends & family wouldnt judge you based only on my words.all the things i had to bear with alone time & again.happiness is all i ask for. youre the same as all of them.

2011-01-04T01:00:00.002+08:00

2011-01-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

caesar salad, mushroom soup, kung pao chicken pasta was YUM!!!

2010-12-27T01:40:00.001+08:00

the day finally arrived- freed from work for a couple of days!though we didnt plan for any overseas getaway, we had tickets to far far away land:)) felt like i was transported into different movie scenes. got quite irritated with the lost world's theme song as it kept repeating while we were struggling to cope with our rumbling tummies & the long queue at the hot dog stand. had a try on all

2010-12-15T12:28:00.003+08:00

my aunt's super up to date, she got herself an itouch! tumblr has definitely won me over with all the fashionish photos, thus i hardly blog here anymore :B hehehe..i cant wait for my upcoming trip to far far away! very very eager for xmas to arrive too! im in need of a haircut. idk what to do with my stupid & boring flat hair! & yes, tvd is sooo overrated..too many "salvatore" lurking around in

2010-12-09T22:45:00.002+08:00

need a knit jacket at work...freezing ttc!

2010-12-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

^^ baby's bdae urghhh...couldnt believe we got conned @ our fav fish soup place! that plate of prawns with veggies was a bomb. damn those chinese! lesson learnt!

2010-11-29T00:36:00.002+08:00

nanxiang's- the veggie was heaven, it was topped with salted fish plus fried chilli hay bee but the big tang bao was below average (my opinion) =\fly me to shanghai now!!! dinner at the usual coffee shop was satisfying as always. idk why im so addicted to their soup & the ice lemon tea at that particular coffee shop, damn why must then up the price? i managed to find a similar tasting ice lemon

2010-11-27T02:04:00.001+08:00

gave up my sit to an elderly man smiling & thanking the cashier- getting pleasant service in return McDonald's meal brownie topped with a huge scoop of strawberry cheesecake ice cream uncontrollable bitching, like omg i can finally be comfortable in my own skin bumping unexpectedly into long-time-no-see friends being in shopping malls filled with pretty clothing/shoes freed from rotting at my

2010-11-26T23:54:00.001+08:00

it has become a habit for me to make a quiet wish on every special day of our's. hoping time would stand still at 12am & you'd be right here, beside me. its not going happen, cos we're never gonna be blessed with continuous happiness. even luck refuses to be on our side.

2010-11-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

till today, i still wonder what am i to you.

2010-11-22T16:04:00.000+08:00

with the one-for-one instant win from mcdonalds famous monopoly thingy, we headed to the flyer to get a feel of what its like to be on top of the world! thanks baby for being the first again^^ hee

2010-11-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

tyvm weather, i feel a sore throat/cold coming up real soon. & because of the rain, ive yet to jog this week =\ its the gloomy time of the year when the weather changes & keeps pouring..gah, dont know what to wear for the upcoming special function..i dont get why the quality of clothings are getting so budget but theyre tagged with high prices..oh yes, i cant wait for my first online buy to reach

2010-11-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

Y YOU NO?!baby, y you no text me?! *insert y u no fugly cartoon's face!*whahaha

2010-11-11T23:23:00.002+08:00

pleasant & warm birthday bouquet. thanks aunt b^^ thank you, everyone for the cake & gifts! thanks bf for your little surprise cake ♥

2010-11-04T12:55:00.000+08:00

weheartit.comhappy birthday to me!^^

2010-11-03T12:16:00.003+08:00

parents are out to irritate me & wreck my peaceful birthday...urgh. i dont expect anything from them nor want anything. they offering to buy dinner half-heartedly. seriously, i can do without it. thanks.

2010-10-29T21:14:00.001+08:00

im done with this waiting game. how long more? 5years? 10years? what i need most now till i grow all old & wrinkly is a fucking normal & healthy love life. urghhh!

2010-10-26T15:30:00.000+08:00

time to bring bbf out to play again, please turn out pretty okay? ^^

2010-10-22T21:12:00.001+08:00

omfg, tvd you made me lose control of my tear ducts because of that touching breakup scene! damn it.

2010-10-21T17:08:00.001+08:00

revamping my room, lots of drawings from scratch etc. please be pretty! gah! i cant wait for christmas to arrive! so gonna experiment with those colourful xmas lights & decorations ^^ yipee! hopefully, i wouldve saved enough for a pro-er camera by then. its not a must to get it though. need to concentrate on my needs first.

2010-10-17T01:54:00.001+08:00

spent two days catching up with friends. it felt so so so good to be able to chat with people of my age! ahhh, memories...surprisingly, there wasnt a moment of awkwardness at all :D pure coincidence to bump into friends at dinner too.

2010-10-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

WHAT'S HAINANESE CHICKEN RICE?their chicken rice definitely do not taste like our local speciality! how can they even miss out the chilli which complements chicken & rice? their rice is just plain rice- not fragrant at all :( in short, the trip was kinda disappointment..as predicted by the weather forecast, it poured non-stop throughout our five days there. how lucky uh, its the first time it

2010-09-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

will be leaving on a jet plane soonish! excited to explore the little known/documented island:B please hold back the rain, tyvm!

2010-09-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

awesome-st 2 + 10th babyanother step closer to getting to know us better.

2010-09-17T18:10:00.001+08:00

Pri schools actually bother to celebrate the mid autumn festival?! that explains why im still stuck at work on a friday night. fml, seriously.

2010-09-14T11:21:00.000+08:00

credits to style.mtv MEATY :BM.E.A.T. H.E.A.D.P.I.E.C.E M.E.A.T. O.U.T.F.I.T M.E.A.T. P.U.R.S.E M.E.A.T. S.H.O.E.S all that, real meat. omfg

2010-09-14T11:10:00.001+08:00

credits to yahoo news pretty headpiece, pretty dress, pretty shoes.

2010-09-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

arent they colourful & pretty?! sinful raya goodies @ work.

2010-09-12T18:37:00.000+08:00

dislike making choices. yah or nay? =\

2010-09-10T20:50:00.002+08:00

the truth is...ive never loved you. it was always stefan. i love stafan. its always going to be stefan. -tvd *ouch! damn...poor dude..another sizzling & promising season \m/ YEAH!!! :B

2010-09-09T11:54:00.004+08:00

credits to tumblr "food cannot cause you to put on weight, unless you think it can." -Rhonda Byrne; the secret "i can eat whatever i want & i am always the perfect weight." -Rhonda Byrne; the secret

2010-09-08T16:36:00.001+08:00

omfg omfg! i cant wait for tomorrow :B

2010-09-07T17:00:00.003+08:00

URGHHH!~ wanted to loan a book to put an end to my miserable life at my officedesk. but someone out there ruined my plan...the book wasnt on loan when i checked this morning:( doing my tasks at a slow pace to keep myself occupied all the way till its time to knock off. feel like dying as this rate, time, please pass by quickly. i want to lie on my comfy bed with sucha lazy/sleepy weather outside

2010-09-06T00:08:00.006+08:00

"Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you

2010-09-05T22:00:00.004+08:00

7. kept walking till my feet felt sore in the made in india shoes. “loneliness is the worst of all tortures, the worst of all sufferings.”- Paulo Coelho i dont mind being alone, its better than suffering in silence from everything that youre throwing at me. all the lies & excuses that are used too repeatedly. all the things you listed out but unable to achieve. ive waited time & again for you

2010-09-05T00:33:00.004+08:00

credits to =mobiusant 6. hi, ima FAT SLOB. ive got no one to blame except myself :( i need to be toned! i want those defined abs! i want to fit into nice clothings without any worries. knnccbzxzxz. i want to be free- to feel all happy & carefree again.

2010-09-03T21:43:00.002+08:00

its not worth sacrificing for the ones you love. they'll have nothing for you in return nor reward you with a surprise. all they'll do is to ask for more & take you for granted. ive got to wake up & stop ending up being more hurt than before. W.A.K.E. U.P. S.A.B!

2010-09-03T20:39:00.008+08:00

5. stir fried prawns with baby before he flew down south. next up, heart-shaped sunny side eggs!hee was clearing a few unimportant stuff from my hp when i realised ive yet to blog about our shittiest korean food experience everrrrrrr! i should have thrown the bbq meat at the waiters there :S THE FOOD WAS PLAIN PATHETIC/MISERABLE *insert all negative words in the dictionary* it was a torture

2010-09-03T15:34:00.001+08:00

4. hearing your voice warms my heart^^

2010-09-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

3. no matter how much it hurts, i'll never hurt you the way you did. p.s im still feeling sickly...since last friday =\

2010-08-31T15:32:00.002+08:00

2. its the eve of teachers' day today. extra duty assigned- crowd control. i saw the ugly side of some teachers today. grumbled about needing to entertain those ex students. they were practically dying to rush back to their air conditioned office. i'd be touched, overly touched if it were to happen to me. i'd stay & chat for abit, knowing that they rushed down right after classes. i guess, that's

2010-08-30T14:27:00.002+08:00

1. i was kept busy since morning all the way till lunchtime. didnt have the opportunity to brew my green tea yet! pfft..least im moving around & burning some calories :B a few times during the day, my heart felt like it's being squashed- i miss you baby :( was controlling my tears from dripping down since i left the airport last night but suay2 one lady came up the bus from another airport

2010-08-30T00:57:00.001+08:00

dont know when you'll be back again.